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Okay, not SO wordless.
1. I miss him.
2. I HATE oak tree pollen.
Archive: May, 2010
wordless Wednesday
Wednesday, May 19th, 2010 Grateful Friday
Friday, May 14th, 2010
1. We are debt free minus the vehicle payments (and possibly a mortgage in Vegas:) for the first time in our almost 11 year marriage.
2. I officially no longer *HAVE* to work. I think this makes Bryan even happier than me, to know his hard work made it possible.
3. Yoga, believe it or not, even only 2 classes in, it is affecting my mental state in a great way!
4. I finally managed to get our PCS folder put together, so I don’t feel so “unprepared”. Yes, I am a little OCD :).
5. God.
the BIG picture
Tuesday, May 11th, 2010
Here lately, I have been stressing about everything (although the changes I blogged about have been helping). The move, my job, the TDY, my health, buying a house, making new friends, leaving old ones, Vegas schools, crime, etc, etc.
The biggest I think though lately is my self image and self expectations. I am mad at myself for gaining 10 pounds back from my lowest that I worked so hard to get to. I am mad at myself for not being able to get past 4 miles running when I was up to 6 regularly last year. I am frustrated at being tired all the time and letting the sugar addiction back in.
Today, I was listening to Sirius – The Message on the way to base and Johnny Diaz’s “More Beautiful You” came on. Can we say reality check?! I am adding more stress to my plate by being mad about all these things when I really need to step back and focus on the big picture.
For starters, I have went from this…
To this…
Even if I never get those 10 pounds BACK off, I have come a very LONG way.
And, as for the running, I just need to accept that I have cancer and while that may not cripple me, there will be days I can only make 1 mile and there may be days I can make 6. I need to enjoy it again, instead of beating myself up that I didn’t go far enough or fast enough. Who am I running for anyway? Myself or someone else?
This is not to say that I will never battle the “beating myself up” battle again. I think we all go through times like that for one reason or another, but we really need to try to step back and focus on what is truly important, the big picture!
Grateful Friday
Friday, May 7th, 20101. Ice cream
2. Exercise to burn calories, so I can have the aforementioned ice cream :)
3. Skype
4. My internet connection is fixed (even if the cable guy did leave a huge mess on my carpet).
5. Getting to hear the joy in Bryan’s voice when he talks about his classes for the new job and the sim time he got today.
to buy or not to buy…
Thursday, May 6th, 2010Our plan all along with this upcoming move has been to live in base housing for a year and then buy. We are on the the housing waiting list, I have researched the school for that housing area, etc, etc. But today, for some reason (I was REALLY REALLY bored) I checked out realtor.com and started looking at houses.
Big mistake!
Houses there are CHEAP! Of course, because I have never looked at houses there before, I don’t know if they are truly low or just low compared to here, but whatever…I’ll take it. You can get a 3-4 bedroom, 2000+ square foot house, with a pool (a must for me) for well under $150,000.
Now, I don’t know what to do. Bryan and I spent an hour and a half tonight looking at houses online and talking it over. He’s all for buying now and I am the one holding back. The thought of buying a house is scary. The sad part is, is there is one online that I am already attached to and would love to see in person. Sigh.
I guess all we do at this point is pray about it and wait. We have a few bills that will be paid off this summer and I want those gone before we ever even think about applying for a home loan. The hard part though, is that if we do go into base housing, we HAVE to sign a 1 year lease. At least I think we have the area we’d “eventually” like to live in narrowed down. I suppose that’s a start :).
Decisions, decisions…
